I have been receiving your articles for the last few months and at your request I am submitting an article. It is actually my story. It may be boring but it is the truth.

My walk with God came about in a Baptist Church in Waco, Texas. Growing up in the Bible belt, it was a Sunday event to go to Church, go see the relatives and have a Sunday dinner. By the time I sat down to Sunday dinner, my mind was filled with going to hell if you lied, stole, cursed, talked back to your parents, didn’t do your chores, drank, smoked, well the list was endless. As I became an adult, the Fire and Brimstone method of God’s teaching was pretty much engrained in my brain.

Let me add that I had polio as a baby and was left with a severe deformity and physical challenges. I also grew up thinking that this was a punishment. However odd that sounds, that was just the way it was seen by the church. My mother took this particularly hard and sometimes life was  not always pleasant.

I married a GI, went to Germany, had a son, came back to the States, got divorced, remarried, had two daughters, got divorced, remarried and got divorced. After that I gave up on marriage and concentrated on raising my children. There was not a whole lot of help from the fathers but the children are all grown now and turned out great. They all have families or there own and are loving human beings, responsible and productive.

Now I am in the later years of my life. God had watched out for me all these years. I have learned that he is not an unkind God but a loving God who tenderly keeps me safe. 

Last year I pulled my 401, packed up all of my belongings in a Penske truck, 4 cats, towed my car and my nerves 1600 miles from Texas to Michigan to be near my son and his family. I felt it was the workings of God to get me closer to family and be of help with my grandchildren. I did not question how, but just went through the motions of preparing for the trip. It went very smooth and I always knew that the ease I felt was because this was in my plan God had for me. The job market is tough and finding employment has been a nightmare.

Because of my physical condition, muscles and brain power are not exactly at 100%. I have been let go of two jobs because I could not “get” it. I have used all of my money and borrowed from a loan shark operation just to cover my bills. I am in threat of having my car repossessed. And I think the picture has been painted. 

My point is, I know that there is a plan for me. I know that I will wait till this plan is in full view before I can see. I know that this has been one of the toughest things I have had to endure. I understand that I am just a child in God’s hands. I also know that He will not let me fail. I do not know how but I know he will.

Do I have food to eat? Yes. Have I been able to pay my rent and have a roof over my head? Yes. Have I been given all that I need? Yes. Have I had to get rid of my pride? Yes. Am I still learning what God expects of me? Yes, everyday.

I am still struggling to learn what God wants from me and everyday I battle myself to do the right thing, think the right thing and act with confidence and strength.

I will not give up and know that this story will have the ending God wrote for me. I do not know what it is but it will be good. I have met some incredible people here in Michigan. The economy is very depressed and jobs are hard to come by. But I would not want to be anywhere else.

Sincerely,

Lynn Kennon

Michigan

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